Sunday, November 1, 2009

友谊之手

踏出考场。。。
此时此刻的天气正好反映我的心情
乌云密布 雷雨交加 大雨犹如倾倒的水缸 倾盆而下


我不是难过
也 不是伤心
我只是很不甘 生自己的气
要不是多做练习 提升速度。。咳


大雨使得我无法向前走
天公似乎给予我惩示
让我好好的反省
此时 朋友
朋友 撑着雨伞向我走来


就这样 我们一起靠着这把伞涉雨而行
一步一脚印的走向巴士站


本无上心的我只想返归小休
毕竟我已心力交瘁
大雨又无止境的下

是朋友。。。
向我说了一句话:
“吃饱了就不会难过了,一起走吧”

他们带着我来到了我一直想去的
“The Chicken Rice Shop”。。。


我们 有说有笑
心情开始舒畅起来
谢谢朋友
谢谢你们 在我最难过的时候
伸出温暖的手

把我从深坑解救出来。。。 让我感到很窝心

让我知道 我
我不是一个人孤军作战

吃完了 一起把菜渣
做成一道美食 ;P



雨始终不停的落下
我们三个同房送了 女同学返闺
犹豫不决 该乘得换站的巴士 还是 直通的计程车

省钱为先 乘巴士吧!
到了第一站下巴士
决议涉雨步行返归
就这样我们三个大男人在雨中
一步一步地 从 Seksyen 2 走到 Seksyen 6
第一次体验到 Shah Alam 的雨夜景
绵绵细雨 徐徐冷风 轻拂我的脸
虽然有此美景
依然无法掩盖我心中的悲

是朋友
是朋友在我难过的时候伸出友谊之手
就这样我牵着温暖的友谊之友

与朋友 一起走回家
虽然被雨水溅得一身湿
不过我觉得这是我永远都不会忘记的一晚
有你们在身边 再苦的日子也是甜的
不知明年会否与你同班
不过 我想告诉你
就算是相隔天涯海角
咱们间的情谊也不会分离


真诚的友谊,是心灵的良师益友,是生命里的太阳。

真诚的友谊,是一句短暂的问候,是人生的精神财富。

真诚的友谊,是没有情感的附加,是内心世界的寄托。

真诚的友谊,是坦诚相见,以心换心.互惠互利。

珍惜友谊,善待友谊。

愿我们的友谊天长地久.....

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Essentials of Buddhism

Four Noble Truths

1. Suffering exists
2. Suffering arises from attachment to desires
3. Suffering ceases when attachment to desire ceases
4. Freedom from suffering is possible by practicing the Eightfold Path

One does not have to read the Tipitaka (Pali Canon) from beginning to end to understand the four noble truths. Each chapter is a Sutra(Sutta- synopsis), which Buddha would have used to explain the same four noble truths to his audiences under different circumstances.

Tipitaka (Pali Canon)
1. Vinaya Pitaka (Discipline Basket)
2. Sutra Pitaka (Discourse Basket)
3. Abhidharma Pitaka (Higher Knowledge or Special Teachings Basket)

Tipitaka is the earliest collection of Buddhist teachings and the only text recognized as canonical by Theravada Buddhists. Many commentaries have been added over the centuries, however. Tripitaka means "three baskets," from the way in which it was originally recorded: the text was written on long, narrow leaves, which were sewn at the edges then grouped into bunches and stored in baskets. How large is Tipitaka? It is 11 times the size of the Bible.


Noble Eightfold Path

Attainment of enlightenment:
bullet Aim : To attain final liberation called Nibbana.
bullet Instruments : Mind and Body (Nama-rupa).
bullet Procedure : Follow the Noble eight-fold path i.e.

Wisdom (panna)
1. Right View- To understand wholesome deeds, unwholesome deeds and comprehend the law of Karma.
2. Right Intention- The intention of non-greed, non-hatred and non-delusion.

Morality (sila)
3. Right Speech- Abstaining from false speech, malicious speech, harsh speech and idle chatter.
4. Right Action- Abstaining from killing, stealing and sexual misconduct.
5. Right Livelihood- Abstaining from wrong and corrupt means of livelihood.

Meditation (samadhi)
6. Right Effort- Awakening zeal for abandoning of unwholesome states and arising & sustaining of wholesome states.
7. Right Mindfulness- The four foundations of mindfulness (satipattana) namely contemplation on body, contemplation on feelings, contemplation on mind and contemplation on mind-objects.
8. Right Concentration- Abandoning of five hindrances namely lust, ill-will sloth-torpor, worry-agitation and doubt through jhanas.


Three Characteristics of Existence

1. Transiency (anicca)
2. Sorrow (dukkha)
3. Selflessness (anatta)

Hindrances

1. Sensuous lust
2. Aversion and ill will
3. Sloth and torpor
4. Restlessness and worry
5. Sceptical doubt

Factors of Enlightenment


1. Mindfulness
2. Investigation
3. Energy
4. Rapture
5. Tranquility
6. Concentration
7. Equanimity

The Eight Precepts are the precepts for Buddhist lay men and women who wish to practice a bit more strictly than the usual five precepts for Buddhists. The eight precepts focus both on avoiding morally bad behaviour, and on leading a more ascetic lifestyle. The five precepts, however, focus only on avoiding morally bad behaviour.

In Theravada Buddhist countries such as Sri Lanka and Thailand, Buddhist laymen and laywomen will often[citation needed] spend one day a week (on the Uposatha days: the new moon, first-quarter moon, full moon and last-quarter moon days) living in the monastery, and practicing the eight precepts.

The Buddha gave teachings on how the eight precepts are to be practiced, and on the right and wrong ways of practicing the eight precepts.

1. I undertake to abstain from taking life (both human and non-human).
2. I undertake to abstain from taking what is not given (stealing).
3. I undertake to abstain from all sexual activity.
4. I undertake to abstain from telling lies.
5. I undertake to abstain from using intoxicating drinks and drugs which lead to carelessness.
6. I undertake to abstain from eating at the wrong time (the right time is eating once, after sunrise, before noon).
7. I undertake to abstain from singing, dancing, playing music, attending entertainment performances, wearing perfume, and using cosmetics and garlands (decorative accessories).
8. I undertake to abstain from luxurious places for sitting or sleeping.

Ten Precepts

The Ten Precepts (Pali: dasasila or samanerasikkha) refer to the precepts (training rules) for Buddhist samaneras (novice monks) and samaneris (novice nuns). They are used in most Buddhist schools.

1. Refrain from killing living things.
2. Refrain from stealing.
3. Refrain from un-chastity (sensuality, sexuality, lust).
4. Refrain from lying.
5. Refrain from taking intoxicants.
6. Refrain from taking food at inappropriate times (after noon).
7. Refrain from singing, dancing, playing music or attending entertainment programs (performances).
8. Refrain from wearing perfume, cosmetics and garland (decorative accessories).
9. Refrain from sitting on high chairs and sleeping on luxurious, soft beds.
10. Refrain from accepting money

Sixteen Precepts

Within the Zen tradition there are generally sixteen precepts the first five of the last set of them being the standard five precepts. Sometimes these precepts (especially the last ten) are called the Bodhisattva precepts. Additionally, in some traditions such as the white plum lineage the precepts have been formed in the affirmative instead of the negative.[19]

(Three Treasures)

1. Taking refuge in the Buddha
2. Taking refuge in the Dharma
3. Taking refuge in the Sangha

(Three Pure Precepts)

1. Not Creating Evil
2. Practicing Good
3. Actualizing Good For Others

(Ten Grave Precepts)


1. Affirm life; Do not kill
2. Be giving; Do not steal
3. Honor the body; Do not misuse sexuality
4. Manifest truth; Do not lie
5. Proceed clearly; Do not cloud the mind
6. See the perfection; Do not speak of others errors and faults
7. Realize self and other as one; Do not elevate the self and blame others
8. Give generously; Do not be withholding
9. Actualize harmony; Do not be angry
10. Experience the intimacy of things; Do not defile the Three Treasures

An Introduction to Buddhism

To do no evil;

To cultivate good;

To purify one's mind:

This is the teaching of the Buddhas.

--The Dhammapada

The Buddha was born Siddhartha Gautama, a prince of the Sakya tribe of Nepal, in approximately 566 BC. When he was twentynine years old, he left the comforts of his home to seek the meaning of the suffering he saw around him. After six years of arduous yogic training, he abandoned the way of self-mortification and instead sat in mindful meditation beneath a bodhi tree.

On the full moon of May, with the rising of the morning star, Siddhartha Gautama became the Buddha, the enlightened one.

The Buddha wandered the plains of northeastern India for 45 years more, teaching the path or Dharma he had realized in that moment. Around him developed a community or Sangha of monks and, later, nuns, drawn from every tribe and caste, devoted to practicing this path. In approximately 486 BC, at the age of 80, the Buddha died.

His last words are said to be...

"Impermanent are all created things;
Strive on with awareness."

Monday, September 21, 2009

W.E.L.C.O.M.E. BACK!

it's almost two months i didn't update my blog about my life here in INTEC...

W.E.L.C.O.M.E. BACK!!

Welcome back!
This was the first word my mum said to me
when i entered my mum's car.

I missed my mum so much..
but, dun know y??
thousands of words that i wanted to say to my mum...
came to the edge of my mouth and stopped there.

my brain blanked~

I dunno what to say

She didnt asked me how's my life here in INTEC?
Did I missed home?
Narrated my story in school??

We just kept silent~

I think after 5 minutes,
my mum broke the silent atmosphere by asking me,
"Have u eaten?"

I answered, "Yes, I ate 2 packets of Nasi Lemak!"

Then, we started to talk...
^^

Wow.. it's great to be home!!!
I just put my luggage aside
and rushed towards my bed...
and,
SLEEP @@

I missed my home very much
here, is filled with all spice of my memory since i moved here 3 years ago.
i prepared my test, exam, and SPM here..
but now.... TT

although i knew that i have to be in the boring bus for 6 hours ++ to reach home
but, it still can't wipe out my thirst to back home ><

At night, we had gathering...
although i wasn't so willing to wake up coz i was so sleepy at tat time~
i felt like to continue my sleeping
but, i didn't do so
coz my frenz had been waiting me in my living room (i was the driver)
haiz~
i had no choice but to wake up~

I met my old frenz at TomYum Mee Food stall
wow, so great to meet my frenz here..
we chat and chat and chat~
hahaha!
also, I met my frenz in primary school who r studying in Chung Ling!
so weird, they also having gathering here at the same time
luckily i didn't on my bed right now...haha!

The next day,
i went out wif my family
we planned to have our dinner at TAO restaurant
but,
"Sorry, sir. It's full already..."
==
nvm, next plan --> Sushi King! wakaka
wow, very full...satisfied, but I am more prefer Korean cuisine...

suddenly, my mum came out an idea to watch "Where Got Ghost" at Sunway Carnival Mall
tut tut tut....(on the way by car)

"Sorry, sir, it's full oredi..."
@#!#@$@$#!@!
this was the second time to hear this statement in one night...
sad ><

tutu tutu tutu (back home)

the next day..*(3th day after back home)

Yeah!!!it's time to go to Mengkuang dam!
however,
it's my fault again ><

at 5.55am


"halo, Wei Hung ar...Where r u now wa??"
"har?! of coz on my bed la!!!"
"wat?? u haven't woke up kok ar?!"
"so...?"
"U 4got today we r going to dam mie?? we r all waiting 4 u now..."
"Oh me gosh! i know~wait 4 me har...I am coming!"

>< sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...

after sorry, it's sorry again... there is no other words to replace "sorry" & to cover my embarrassment ...

we planned to c sunrise at mengkuang dam there...but.. i spoil it
bcoz everyone was waiting 4 me (bcoz i am d driver ><)


any way, THANKS my frenz!
bcoz of u,
i wont feel lonely
bcoz of u,
i know wat is true fren
bcoz of u,
i know how to ENJOY MY LIFE!

although we cant meet for another 2 months
although we have to separate
but, d friendship will i keep in the deepest place in my heart
hope that we all won't 4get the time we have been together...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S FOREVER!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Life is suffering??

My friend asked me after studied about The Four Noble Truths in Buddhism:

"Why Buddhism do emphasis on suffering? Isn't it is quite gloomy to say tat life is suffering?? Is tat Buddhism pessimistic? Do u happy with that? "

erm....for me, suffering is actually exist in our life. But, suffering is something we, as human beings, usually do not want to know. We try to ignore its existence.

I have studied a book entitled "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living“. This book have mentioned that when modern science did a series of research on Buddhist techniques of mind training in 2004, the result has found that Buddhists who practice meditation on a regular basis are indeed the happiest people!
This statement oppose the perception of those who do not know about Dhamma.
(I have tried meditation & that's why I try to perform it at my hostel at least once a week ^^quite effective)

Therefore, Buddha always told His followers about the causes and effects (cycle of suffering) as well as ways to address it (one of the way= meditation- purify your mind n use your wisdom to find the answer & solution by your own).

Another study by the University of California claims that Buddhist meditation makes individuals able to deal with fear and angle much better.

...I am talking about "suffering", but why i focus so much on meditation??

Actually, meditation, or mind training, is an important aspect of Buddhist practice. It is not just about claiming the mind but it is also about freeing oneself from habitual states of greed, hatred and delusion. Which, each of these is a source of suffering and therefore unhappiness. ^^


Although the Buddha's teaching starts with suffering (dukkha)- the 1st noble truth, it ends in freedom from suffering- known as nirvana(3th noble truth)

The Buddha's teaching therefore is about achieving this freedom from suffering- ultimate hapiness.

Though nirvana is the ultimate goal, how is it that Buddhists might find happiness in a world that is known as full of change, uncertainty, and unsatisfactoriness? Even when happiness is possible, there is no escape from old age, sickness and death.

What Buddhism does teach is that there are skillful ways of living (moral precepts& working on various meditiation techniques)

Not killing or harming living beings, not lying, not stealing, not indulging in inappropriate sexual activity, not drinking alcohol or taking drugs, mean that unhappy states are less likely to occur. To harm a living being, for instant, has had karmic consequences. It can lead to feeling of remorse and regret for what has done. It will also lead to suffering according to the Buddhist doctrine of moral causality or karma.

A strong element of Buddhism is cultivating +ve or wholesome states of mind. These include resisting a tenddency towards anger and fostering loving kindness (metta) and compassion (karuna).

Many Buddhists actively practice meditation techniques that develop goodwill to all beings. There is a practice of seeing each individual being as if they were your mother. This kindness and goodwill that you would extend to your mother, you also extend to others universally. Then, there is the compassion of empathizing deeply with others suffering. If they suffer, it is your suffering too - there is no separation!

So, how to we find happiness in this world? One message from Buddhism is the deep truth that one finds happiness by seeking the happiness of others.

___________________________________
May all my parents, family, relatives, teachers, friends, and those who are unfriendly to me and people surrounding me, free from harm and danger, metal and physical suffering, and live in happiness.

Amitabha

Words of Wisdom

Buddhism is simply described by this quote:

"Every evil never doing
and in wholesomeness increasing
and one's mind well-purifying:
this is the Teaching of all Buddhas."


This quote, itself, includes all the teachings in Buddhism, and all the practices of Buddhism from Mahayana to Theravada, from Pure Land Buddhism to Zen Buddhism.
This quote can be used by any one or by any religion in the world as a base for good morality. This is because Buddhism teaches everyone to do good deeds and to avoid bad ones, to live in Peace and Harmony with all sentient beings, and to practice Compassion and Wisdom.
Regardless who you are, if you are doing good things that bring happiness to others and yourself as well as stop making any misery, and use the Wisdom to make wise decisions, you are practicing Buddha's Teachings.


Buddha has taught that all beings to have Buddha Nature in themselves.
And I think it is at somewhere in our hearts but we got deluded by some three malicious poisons; they are Desire, Hatred, and Ignorance.

When our actions, speeches, or thoughts were caused by those three poisons to arise, also somewhere in our hearts will tell us that:

"this is wrong; this is not the right thing to do",

...that is the Buddha Nature.

Due to one who has really strong bad karma,
the karma will overcome the Buddha Nature and control one's actions, speeches, and thoughts.
The person loses control of himself, and that is why there are so many violence in the world.



Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!
Amitabha

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

我是一个怎样的人???

12月21日 謎樣的人
宮位:射手座28º-魔羯座0º
射手魔羯座
本位的土像

12月21日出生的人是非常具有影響力,他們懂得利用沉默而得利的奧妙。不論講話或不講話,他們大多是運用肢體語言,他們的存在和精神力量,以讓人無可抗拒的方式將意見傳達給別人。

確實,12月21日出生的人隻要下定決心,就會盡全力,讓手上的事情成單行道對準方向,直線前進。他們如果想要強迫別人按他的方式做事,都頗能控制結果。

這天出生的人能夠利用沉默達到破壞性的效果。他們和人談話或談判時,會在重要的轉折之處故意不講話。這種方法往往能收入到比大喊大叫還有效果地達到威嚇或令人恐懼的作用。有時候旁人會感覺到那種沉默的後面隱藏著一股脾氣,隨時都可能爆發。所以,一般人對待這一天出生的人總是小心翼翼,免得火山爆發,這種如履薄冰的感覺到後來總使人精疲力盡,最後的結果便是崩潰。因此,12月21日出生的人的人際關繫往往不長久,最後總留下來一些破碎的心。

他們不太願意回答有關他們自身的問題。一方面是因為內心的幻想世界異常神秘,一方面卻又很強悍地將他們的幻想投向外界,塑造周遭的環境。同時,他們對別人的欲望以及能力資格有很強烈的控制欲。很多人都是照他們的意思來對待他們,好讓氣氛愉快一些,因為,旁人很清楚如果不這麼相處會有什麼後果。然而對他們所愛的人,這天出生的人也可能頗具魅力,很有感覺,待人溫暖。

這一天出生的人,不論男女,由於動靜皆宜,所以身體大多很健康。另外,他們也很喜歡小孩子或小動物。這種喜歡有時候甚至超越他們對成人的喜歡。他們強大的直覺力和無言的影響力,在自己和小朋友、小動物這種關繫上得到了發揮。

“不和我在一起就是反對我”-往往是他們的口號、標語。所以他們應該學習多多諒解,不要隻是喜歡那些喜歡他們的人。12月21日出生的人若要促進精神的成 長,排解受他人排斥的恐懼、懷疑與不安。先冷卻希望別人仰慕的欲望將會助益良多。
幸運數字和守護星

12 月21日出生的人受數字3(2+1=3)和巨大行星木星的影響。受到數字3影響的人往往野心勃勃,有時候甚至比較獨裁。由於他們總是想要控制別人,又渴望得仰慕,所以特別容易受傷。數字21和身體的美有很密切的關繫-女性特別是如此。由於木星(射手座的主宰行星)和數字3的雙重影響,造成他們向外拓展的態度,但是由於土星的影響(魔羯座的主宰行星),又會帶來黑暗的、激烈的性情。
健康

今天出生的人必須提防因為遭受挫折而意志消沉。壓抑憤怒與不快的結果,可能導致想控制他人,最後引發暴力行為。對今天出生的人來說,性欲的表達和滿足非常重要。在這一方面,他們需要的愛侶不僅要能夠給予溫暖和感情,還要能夠在肉體上滿足他們。

另外,由於飲食的失衝,所以常常造成皮膚、牙齒方面的健康問題或是體重增加。他們必須克制喜歡喫甜食的欲望,以及食用太多動物脂肪和乳酷食品的傾向。若有 服用可能上癮的東西,尤其是酒和抗憂郁劑,要非常謹慎。至於運動方面,有氧運動、騎馬等激烈運動則非常適合。
建議

學習開放一些,不要那麼神秘;信任他人,多和他人分享。不要累積憤怒。你對外投射的幻想可能是危險的。避免占有別人。
名 人

“花蝴蝶”葛麗菲絲(Florence Griffith Joyner)美國傑出的短跑好手,田徑場上花蝴蝶,是奧運短跑三項金牌得主,同時也是100米及200米短跑的世界紀錄保持人,1998年過世。

大陸演員鞏俐,成名作為《紅高梁》,後以《秋菊打官司》獲威尼斯影展最佳女主角,並以《霸王別姬》、《大紅燈籠高高掛》等片成為國際紅星。

德小說家暨諾貝爾文學獎得主海瑞希包爾(Heinrich Boll)作品有《九點半的撞球》等。

法蘭克薩帕(Frank Zappa)詞曲作家,他除了創作外還身兼歌手並精通多種樂器,作品有《發明之母》。

松本清張,日本戰後社會派推理小說大師,成名作《點與線》。

網球巨星艾芙特(Chris Evert),她曾經贏得七次法國公開賽、六次美國公開賽、兩次澳洲公開賽、三次溫布頓冠軍。

塔羅牌

大秘儀塔羅牌的第21張是“世界”,牌面上有一位女神手持權杖在奔跑,她擁有無盡的力量,穿越全世界以展示趔。這張牌表示,在這個星球上沒有什麼是得不到的。牌面正立時,表示報酬優厚、人格正直,倒立則指巨大的障礙、精神渙散以及自憐的性格。

靜思語

誠實的第一步就是對自己知無不言。
優點

意志堅定、身體健康、直覺力強。
缺點

自我沉溺、控制欲強。

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

大學生活

大學生活真不同,

日出而做,日落而息;

去的不是自己的家,回的也不是自己的家。
小學老師煮魚給我吃,

中學老師釣魚給我煮來吃,
大學講師教我怎樣釣然後自己煮來吃。
每天幾乎限製自己說中文的機會,

找更多機會說英文,因為要考IELTS。
不過,還是很喜歡這種生活。

這總比之前七個月在家翹腳的生活更加有意義,

也讓我的人生有一個新的目標!!


-cite from Cheng Hong Yong

Thursday, July 9, 2009

New challenge begins - 9 July

经过两天的sembang洗礼后,我们终于有老师进班教书了!
上课的感觉真好~yeah!
又再有人提出选class Rep(班长)
不过也没得到全班的响应
没有班主任真不习惯
就连选班长也要自发自觉的~
就在这个时候。。。!!!
一个女同学(Jan)挺身而出,以流利的英语主持大局--选班长!
就在这个时候。。。!!!
一个接着一个提名我为班长。。。
心想: 糟糕~我已告诉自己无论如何到了这里只做odinary student就好了~真的不想!~
我赶紧提名Jan为班长。。。

开始投票。。。

结果
满分通关
毫无准备的我。。。无端端的背上了“class rep”的重担
无奈的我。。。只好接受了。

这里的班长不容易当,
什么事情都得一手包办 包括transfer/print讲义啦。。。photostat notes la~
这里的校园真的很大,办公室/lecturer room/computer lab又分开来,一个在西,一个在东。。
真的很喘
还好有朋友的帮忙~

对于我而言,无论是什么工作,只要是交给我做了
就算我有百般的不愿意,有多困难,我也会全力以赴,把工作做得最好。

这就是我的原则!(哇塞,哈哈!)
所以,SC3,我一定不会辜负你们对我的期望的!!

New challenge begins - 7 July

Today is the very first day of my class...
也是我认为我的新生活、新挑战就要开始了
我的人生又再翻开新一页了
真的很高兴 我和另外两个室友-译斌和建理竟然那么巧读同班勒!!!
真的很不可思议 那以后我就有同伴了哦~嘻嘻~
我找了一个‘风水位’坐了下来~
望望四周,发现都是女孩子
似乎全班只有三个男人
事实果然如此 全班只有我们三个华人男子!嘻嘻~
OMG!已经过了一个小时多讲师都没有进班
发呆了好一阵子过后 马来女同学主动上前来pecah pecah ice(ice-breaking)
哇~顿时间整个人麻掉了
不管我怎么记也记不起来马来同学的名字。。。3
似乎她们的样子都一样的+上她们的名字~
要辨认出来真是要我的半条命呀!(果然比背书还要难~哈哈!)
结果我想到一个绝招:把名字记下
准备一张list,(跟着座位)把每一个同学的personal details都记录下来
哈哈!那准没错了吧!
现在我在INTEC 有了另一个称号:LEONG
似乎我的名字太难记了?!没关系啦。。。只不过有点不习惯
就这样过完了第一天~除了sembang还是sembang...
根本连讲师的脸。。应该是影子都没有看到
听到隔壁班传来的教书声和笑声真的很。。。。

(院方警告:不准在blog刊登批评校方及有损校名的文章~不然会被开除。。。所以...

Sunday, July 5, 2009

New school = new life...

很紧张,要翻开生活的新一页了。。。


27June

不想起床 很想在床上多躺一会儿
因为。。。今天是我最后一天在爱窝里睡觉
躲在被窝里~单纯地想要记住躺在我床上的感觉 嗅一嗅我床上那熟悉的味道
想着:到了宿舍 这一切的感觉都没有了。。。一切都会显得那么的陌生
我,会适应吗?我,会想家吗?


不过,我现在还有要务在身 必须马上起床
今天是学校的Hari Koko
我必须到学校给我的junior加油打气!
很可惜的~我只能够看到他们Check uniform 而已
就拖着很不舍得的心情驾车回家准备
很可惜,无法亲眼目睹他们比赛
孙子孙女们~阿公知道你们一直以来都很努力地练习就是希望能做出一番成绩给我们看。。。
这些我都知道~当我在车上收到你们得奖的消息,我真的很高兴
不过心里还是有一丝丝的遗憾~不是你们得到亚军,而是无法亲自送上我的祝贺
。。。
哇塞~5小时半的车程呀!要命咩?!
屁股都快发麻了~
到了shah alam 之后想找个餐馆吃午餐
糟糕~这里好冷清噢!一个华人的人影都找不到,更不用说是华人餐厅啦!
兜来兜去只是看到2间Mamak档。
人生地不熟,只好将就一下咯~叫了一盘MeeGoreng。yiak,好咸!不过味道还不错。。
想到以后每天都要吃花样少的马来餐~OMG!对与爱美食的槟城人来说可说是一项折磨呀!!!
吃饱后就开始寻找落脚地-酒店
这时车上开始热闹起来了。。。大家对地图上的路线和真正的路有些争执
原因是我们都不懂该怎么去~这里又有很多个roundabout~头痛!
爸爸突然对我们大骂,说我们弄乱他,搞到气氛很僵~不过最后还好没事
办理好check-in手续后我们就去寻找我的宿舍-Kolej Cendana
提前参观宿舍,感觉环境还不错
宿舍的邻居就是警察局+警察宿舍
double protection! ^^觉得应该很有安全感吧~哈哈!
28June
早安!
一早就到宿舍报到
真开心,我的roommate都是华人和峇峇哦!(2-马六甲,1-雪兰莪,2-槟城)
29June
整个星期的迎新日就这样掀开序幕了~
还好这里的迎新日不像我想象中的恐怖
少了所谓的“玩残”新生~哈哈!
相反的,一切的一切都已经安排好给我们了
让我对这里多了一份温馨的感觉。
不过,迎新日还是有不足的地方啦。。。lol
2July
迎新日到了第4天
一切再也没有安排好了
吃了昨天买便便的面包当早餐
一早起来就得和其他同学争巴士~
结果是~抢输了TT 只好人挤人地站着lol!
真的很危险~好几次都差点儿跌倒
。。。好逊吧
午餐啦。。。晚餐啦。。。
巴士的行程表啦。。。
总之是一切上课、下课和生活起居都得自己琢磨琢磨,一切自己保重!
这里的食物~erm~都知道的啦~全部都是马来餐!每天就是得面对来来去去的那几样菜!而且有的很贵又不好吃~
好怀念槟城的华人餐噢!!!
当然还有妈妈煮的菜
洗衣真的是~一项大工程呀!
搞到我啦~~满身大汗啦!腰酸背痛啦!
都怪我的“腰力”不佳。。。哈哈!
总之很喘就对了啦!
真的觉得有妈的孩子真的是个宝。。。太幸福了
也体会到妈妈的辛苦~妈,我爱你。。。^^
3July
糟糕了,连课都还没上今天就来个什么placement test!!!
我已经在家发霉or生锈or whatever la...
已经将近7个月我连书都没有碰了~怎么办?!
结果。。。
英文:51/70 (16题来不及做完叻)
数学;3/5 (真的忘到完了~2题大胆地空着)
其实hor,礼堂的冷气真的是...freezingly cold咯~害我不能专心(找借口,嘻嘻)
整个人顿时间感到很沮丧
其实在这里读书真的是很压力咯
全部学生不是straight A's就是 straight A1's的。。
而且还是经过JPA精挑细选的~觉得自己很渺小咯~
在中学有多风光,来到这里显得什么都不是咯
这里差不多每一个人都很geng的,在学校不是团长,主席就是总学长
哇!OMG!我怎样能够生存呀?!(还是一个未知数)
算了拉~就像senior所说的:你们要享受大学生活~
暂时别想那么多,跟朋友去shopping吧~
5July
昨晚
跟朋友 一起大扫除
我呢很“荣幸”地被安排"supervisor of toilet"
很好听hor? 其实就是洗厕所啦!
不过当大家一起努力把宿舍打理得干干净净时
我感觉到有一股力量把我们拉得更近
糟糕~上瘾了~希望每天都洗厕所啦。。。

Monday, June 15, 2009

学会。。。原谅

“都快1.30pm 了,你还在睡呀?!”
“哎哟,人家刚才早上有学校活动,很累嘛。。很快就到!”
虽然很累 不过就算再捆也不能错过!

又再一次的朋友聚会兼欢送会
欢送了之后 又再欢送。。。哈哈!
我们相聚的时间就只有在朋友聚会那短短的几小时
所以我们就拼命地陆续由不同的人
以不同的理由 不过是相同的原因
联络所有朋友出来聚一聚

毕业之后 朋友们都各自“单飞”了
我们之间的回忆也就像是停止了的时钟。。
时针和分针都停留在中五那年
以往嘻嘻哈哈 互相打闹 玩耍 争吵
一起读书 一起操练 的记忆
就只有在脑海中不断的重播着

也许应为这样 我们都学会了原谅和珍惜
我也深深地了解
原谅别人 就等于 原谅自己的执著和固执
以前的你和妳当初是怎样的伤害我

尽管当时的我已经遍体鳞伤
悲痛和绝望充斥着我每一条神经线
还曾为了你们 不断的砖牛角尖
最后崩溃了。。。
徘徊在另一个世界的边缘
幸好有妈妈您的双手 把我拉了回来 到你的怀抱里

近来的我仍对当时的伤痛 就像才发生一样
伤口仍然不时地隐隐作痛
我还是选择忘记
不是忘记 这已烙印在我内心最深处的记忆
而是忘记 当时的你 当时的噩梦
忘记 我的执著
对你 对我 也只有选择忘记 才能得到原谅
而选择原谅 才能获得解脱 获得全新的自己

现在的我虽然无法忘记当时的记忆
不过已经忘记我给自己的噩梦
因为 真正给我噩梦的人不是你们
而是我自己 是我的执著 放不下怨恨 容不下缺陷
我终于领悟到真正的快乐是不用找的 不是朋友给的
而是自己给自己的快乐
因为 自己放下了多少 就得到多少的快乐

现在的我 已懂得 珍惜当下的一切
相信 你我 都一样 得到真正的快乐


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

很喘耶。。。

第一次做medical check-up
即紧张又期待的叻。。。

人生第一次到Hospital Seberang Jaya
结果。。。
得到通知-我必须到我住家附近的Klinik Kesihatan 才能做检验

我和妈妈及朋友就乖乖地跟着指示到那里做检验
结果。。。
他们又说到这里检验的结果3个星期才出来
又叫我们到私人化验室-Pathlab去做其中blood& urine test
过后又叫我们回到Hospital Seberang Jaya去做Mantoux Test
做完所有的检验之后last step 才找他们的。。。现在不行~
haiz~ 喘!

结果原本免费的身体检验就这样白白地被私人化验室吞掉RM132.00
我手里捧着一罐容器
坐在一旁等着尿尿
不懂为什么 我等了好久好久噢 都没有尿意
拼命地喝水呀喝水 还是没有哦!
怎么办??
一个护士走过问了我一句大意是“你拿尿液样本了没?” 我说“NotYet”
“为什么你还没去拿?” “不好意思,没有尿,可以wait 4 me 吗?”
糟糕。。。我妈妈和弟弟等到饿了耶~就撇下我和朋友等尿尿。。。
为了打破僵局,我和朋友决定到厕所“集合”!
玩起剪刀石头布 看谁先去尿尿 结果还是宣布“无效!!!”
更糗的是,他们吃饱回来了,我们都还没好。。。哈哈!**speechless...

护士看是等不及了 叫我先去做blood test
糟糕!我的满脑子就想着“尿尿呀~尿尿。。。” 完全没做心理准备
好怕噢!问了护士白痴的问题“very pain ya? i'm very scared wor~ can u reduce the pain???"
haha...人呀~到了生死关头就会有虚拟的期望++上语无伦次~哈哈!
讲真的,其实不是很痛啦~
不过我是希望打针怕到加上被吓倒流尿的。。。
结果还是愿望不能能够成真!
Aduhai....Kesiannya!!!


接着。。。
我们隔天跟着指示又到Hospital Seberang Jaya想做 Mantoux Test
结果。。。
他们又说我们来错Department

我们像是傻瓜
乖乖跟着指示到了Klinik Respiratori
结果。。。
他们又说今天没有做检验,星期五再来

。。。。。
不懂怎么说,就一个字 “喘”
做一个medical check-up也那么喘!

接着我就要到Bank Islam 交我的Yuran Pengajian
结果又是一个问题
不懂Bank Islam 在何方??
兜兜转转 寻寻觅觅 终于找到了!!
很奇怪,只有我们是非回教徒??
问题来了!
“Nama anda tidak sama dengan nombor IC anda. Kamu bernama Lim Siew HooN??"
噢买尬!我几时变成女人的?!糟糕~
竟然连交个学费也困难重重 历经波折啊。。。
唯一的办法:打电话!
打电话不就打咯。。NO NO NO!这可是讲究学问的噢!
来来来,让我做个“打电话”总结吧:

Bhg Pengambilan Pelajar -> Bhg Bendahari -> Bhg Akaun Pelajar -> Bhg Pengambilan Pelajar -> Bhg Kewangan INTEC ->...???

就这样我像是足球般被踢来踢去,到现在都没有一个结果。。
不懂现在该怎么办?
现在唯一的办法只能相信 政府的标语了“BUAT KERJA”

福慧圆满的足迹

“玮航,你几时读书?假期你有空吗?生活组缺人。。。。”
因为这通电话
我在因缘巧合之下--碰巧得空
就成为了《福慧圆满的足》的生活组工委。
就这样我第一次成为 北海佛教会 佛青之友生活营 的大家庭一份子

当工委和当儿童生活营辅导员的感觉真的截然不同~

当辅导员--〉* 跟营员是‘一线’的接触
* 时刻陪伴在营员的左右,是营员的典范
* 将所传达的知识与佛学讲解给营员
*与同组营员融为一体,感情深厚

当生活组工委--〉* 属于幕后的工作人员
* 准备、提供、并维持营员与生活营的生活用品、食水及居士服(制服)
* 出坡-做家务的负责人
* 生活营中的“时钟”
*供佛、上香
* 工作繁重, 不过时间有弹性
* 出坡时才有与营员的短暂交流,与营员缺乏接触与交流


经过几星期的筹备终于做好一切准备等待生活营的开始。。。

生活组工委:
黄壮致 - 生活智慧王(“师公”)
梁玮航 - 生活偶像型
黄文豪 - 生活猛男型
林智婷 - 生活文静型(“师姑”)
邹子蕙 - 生活斯文型
方萍 - 生活美女型

(和子蕙搬水桶上四楼后留影)

这就是这5天4夜生活营中与我一起默默努力的战友们!
我们一起熬夜、一起吃饭、一起盥洗、一起干活、一起努力、
一起偷懒、一起睡觉、一起烦恼、一起开心
(我们6人累了就一起休息一下再冲刺!)

一同分享咱们所谓的喜怒哀乐。。。
因为这样我们同组已经培养出一起的默契。。。真的很怀念这几天的日子。

谢谢你们尤其是生活组组长给予我的帮忙。 让我能够在工作上得心应手~
说实在的,当初我知道自己将加入生活组时我是心中有百般的不愿意
因为印象中这个工作就像是MPSP,一点都不讨好~

虽然这几天的工作很累,又得搬这个、那个的,又得做起清洁工作来,又得像个老人般的催促出坡的营员快手快脚的。。。
最后又被其他人说我们对营员不够友善之类的~
真是一项吃力不讨好的工作~

当生活营的最后一天的告别仪式中,
营员都百般不舍地紧紧抱着其他组别的工委,又哭又抱又签名又拍照的。。。
虽然我们也有抱抱签名,不过也没受到那么感性的对待~
开会选最佳组别、组长、营员时又是选择我们工作的时段~我们都没得参与投票
(虽然是无可避免的)
心里可却还真不是什么滋味的~

不过如果给我再次选择,我希望我还能是生活组的组员,最好还是原班人马。。。
因为我开始接受并喜欢上生活组。
这并不是因为我喜欢打扫,只因为我喜欢上那种大家一起干粗活儿的感觉
那份用汗水培养出的默契与感情
与此同时我也学到很多很多。。。

不过这样的期望只能化作我永远的回忆。。。
过了这一次,大家都各有所忙~
很难生活组能够有像现在一样的面孔
不过,我永远都不会忘记在一起同甘共苦,苦中作乐的日子
这一切的一切我都会将它收藏在内心最深处
希望大家有缘再聚,
再续我们未尽的缘分。

愿有第2个自己能够延续自己在佛教会贡献的足迹
“佛教需青年;青年需佛教”
阿弥陀佛

(上至下)
-在303整理用具
-准备出坡洗碗用具
-打板后准备上早课
-检查净房(厕所)后照照

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

很惨!!

前天凌晨,
当我用毛巾抹脸时,觉得脸上突然一阵刺痛!
我原以为只是用力过度弄到痘痘所以会痛。。。

隔天一早,
当我刷牙时,发现脸上怎么多了几个痘痘?!
“haiz, 肯定是昨天熬夜惹的祸!” (哈哈!真的好天真噢!晕 @.@)
我就像平常一样吃完早餐就开电脑上网~

就在这个时候。。。
妈妈突然走过来问我为什么颈项有那么多红斑?!
楸一声!我马上跑到镜子前照照!真的被吓倒咯!!
我的脸、手、颈项!!!噢买尬!!好恐怖哦!好像恶心的蟾蜍。。。
@#@$##%$#
求天拜佛我的最后一个希望~
我掀开衣服。。。
我的最后一个城门也失守了~
一个字。。。。“晕!”

我的妈妈啦,阿麼啦都异口同声地说:
“出假piak。”
管它是真的假的,我现在都很怕了叻。。。
好像就快死去的感觉。。。噢~怎么会这样的?!

没多久我又发烧、流鼻涕、打喷嚏、喉咙痛、脚软。。。噢!好辛苦噢!
阿麼又改口说:“出真piak!!!"
结果我就上网查询结果是:“ Rubella — commonly known as German measles ”
下面写着:“Rubella cannot be treated with antibiotics because antibiotics do not work against viral infections."
噢买尬! 晚上去看Doctor,等了快50分钟了才轮到我, 他竟然告诉我no treatment! 会自己好的。给了我一包发烧药就收费RM25!!!
现在我只好等咯。。。(郝无奈喔~)






过了一天。。。。
啊!!!更恐怖了!! (因为手机拍摄所以看似不够明显)


跟朋友讲起时才发现到底是哪个没良心的家伙传给我的!!!
我的好朋友耶!! 两星期前他刚从兵营回来我们就gathering咯。。。

"The incubation period for rubella is 14–23 days, with an average incubation period of 16–18 days. This means that it can take 2–3 weeks for a child to get rubella after they are exposed to someone with the disease."

当时他已经中了可是却和我们一起出来(他都没讲他中了高度性传染的德国麻疹)

"The rubella virus passes from person to person through tiny drops of fluid from the nose and throat. People who have rubella are most contagious from 1 week before to 1 week after the rash appears. Someone who is infected but has no symptoms can still spread the virus."

我还坐在他的对面叻!!!!真实的~
真的是被他害惨了!搞到我那么痛苦又不敢外出见人!
天天在家呻吟```弟弟妹妹又怕会被传染,不敢靠近我。我只好把我的鼻子和嘴巴包起来咯~
很可怜的我。。。呜呜呜~很惨!

原来不止我一个人,当天一起喝茶的几个朋友都中了叻。。。。
嘻嘻~还好有人陪我^^(好坏hor我?)
其实不是啦。。。希望大家能健健康康,快点病好咯!哈哈!
我也戴口罩出门以免成为“害人精”“带菌者”。。。(因为都很难听)

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Misunderstood

Somebody once told me
If you’re misunderstood, it’s your fault
You’re responsible, not the other party

Because
You’re responsible for the words that came out of your mouth
That you say them in a way the meaning is correctly put across
That the meaning which leaves your mouth
is the same meaning received at the other end
That your speech attains its desired effect
Then is it useful and effective speech
That it’s not what you said but what was heard
That it’s not what you meant but what people perceived you meant
That people understand you correctly
That you’re not misunderstood
If not, it’s your fault
You’re responsible

Yes, very utilitarian
Very practical advice
Makes you even more responsible for what you say
If you aren’t already
But then again…

Now, how much of a responsibility is that?
That you’re not only responsible for yourself and what you say
But you’re also responsible for what others hear or mis-hear, understand or mis-understand?

Is it “Misunderstood”
That the whole word comes as one?
That the whole word belongs to you?
Your responsibility?

Or is it “Mis-understood”
That “mis” is added to “understood”?
That perhaps at times
It’s beyond you?

“Misunderstood” or “Mis-understood”?

Learnt this from a friend:
“To go on living without fear. Fear of not being
[correctly understood or] rightfully acknowledged by everyone.”

Monday, May 11, 2009

心灰了,冷了。。。

回到久别的学校

看看四周围的环境

老样子,没什么改变

只是新建了一个读书凉亭

哇...好壮观哦!

是我们梦寐已久的了

平时都没有地方温书

(下课时又被赶出课室,只好从三楼跑下楼,再到行政楼,从楼下再爬到四楼的拥挤吵闹图书馆,累死了又浪费时间,还得霸位,真是的)

“为什么偏偏等到我们离开了才兴建读书亭呢?!”,心中呐喊着。

不过却是找不回了的回忆

在校园中慢走,

当时在学校五年的点点滴滴又不断地重播着...

真是触景伤情呀!

经过一番的寻寻觅觅,

终于将照片和读书心得文章交给副校长

(要刊登在校刊的噢!心中甜丝丝滴...哈哈!)

可是,

正当我在离开途中!!!

背后传来熟悉的声音

“WeiHung,how about your koko marks? No problem already?”

真是的,这句简单的话从课外活动副校长的口中出来,

马上在我心中发酵

勾起我不堪回首的记忆!

想当时为了课外活动分数

穿梭在学校和家里之间奔波劳碌


想起三月十二号。。。

“此时此刻的心情就像秋天的落叶一样,

一片一片地从树上凋零飘落在泥泞上

然后又一片一片地被人踩在足下

一阵冰冷刺骨的秋风吹来,

我冷得全身颤抖,

冷风把我的落叶吹到别处去,

吹到遥不可及的远方,

悲愤地离开原本应该属于自己的地方,

一去不复返…”


其实我并不喜欢把心情写在部落格上,

任人彻底地看透自己裸露的心房,

可是心情低落的我,

只有通过这种管道抒发压抑在心中令我难以摆脱的

从心槛中拉出来

让我可以透过气来

实在是没想到辛苦经营管理而付出的心血竟然可以如此的被人家践踏在脚下

竟然这些心血是那么的不值

不获得肯定!不受重视尊重

学校竟然可以如此的残酷!

抹杀了我们一班为共同性念而奋斗不息,

所有同志的努力

难道真的值得区区的那几分

全体前一届委员会会员竟值C, D甚至拿E??!!

难道面对这种情形我们要忍气吞声吗?!

到底是谁的错?!

是谁填写这些分数的呢?! 大家心知肚明.

后浪推前浪一点也没形容错误不知什么时候开始,是退休后吗?

将我们的努力视入粪土也许是职权改变了她的原貌!

当初是我一手提拔她上位的...

虽然只是她一人而已,可却已对我带来多大的伤害~有谁能知??

虽说分数是由他们呈上给老师的

没错,没有经过悉心检查,称得上失责,

可是她竟然可以对我来口出狂言!…

加上老师的失责,胡乱给分,甚至给错分数,简直是置我们至于死地…!

结果很残酷无情地告诉我们说已经呈上教育局的分数不能更改来打发我们

这种种的乱像逼得我快崩溃了~

会有如此偏激的想法全因我对社团的热爱,愿意付出一切去换来它的成就!

愿意将我的所有经验和知识传乘下去


可是

一切的一切….

让我心灰心已结冰~

只好眼睛闭下….立下决心,

悲愤地离开….

我的归属地
….

把这些年来的记忆都带到遥远冰冷黑暗的另一方


靠着它
, 走下去

不再回头


在远方祝福你们成功
….

我在这儿的生命由你们延续