Saturday, January 9, 2010

十八年前的那个冬至。。。

十八年了!我呆在这个地球已经有十八载了!
我一直期盼着2009年12月21日的到来~
因为总是觉得自己好像一直被困在笼子里 (也许是心理作用吧!)
总觉得18岁了,是时候解开捆绑在身上的绳子,做个被驯服却还是会很野的狮子。。。
呃~好像形容错了
应该是“做个在空中自由翱翔的老鹰”吧!

可惜的是, 事实并没有我想象中的“顺利”。。。
总觉得生日过后:ei,好像都一样啊,没什么改变。
只是现在的我已经不能够再拿:我还未成年哪~ 当作借口了
要撒娇还得顾忌三分,担心会不会被人批评孩子气、长不大呢?
也许,是我太多心了吧~
总之,老样子,我还是我!

“大日子”一早就和最亲的朋友去槟岛古迹区一日游。
真有心,他们知道我对历史古迹最有兴趣的了。
太阳爷爷好像很兴奋似的,一起为我“祝寿”
就这样,我们顶着猛烈的阳光,开始我们的旅程。
虽然怕黑怕热的我,显得有点吃不消, 不过我还是玩得很开心^^

紧接着又是一大堆节目哦~ 就是朋友聚会哦!
今天的我,好像是当了一整天的艺人,一直在赶通告 ;P
最后一场“通告”, 一句话:很搞笑!我们一直拿不定主意要去哪?
在马路上兜兜转转的。。。最后我决定去Sunway!!
虽然惹来骂声(原因是他们以为去附近餐馆吃一顿而已,所以没打扮)
不过嘛。。。我管你们那么多啊~
今天是本少爷人生唯一的18岁叻,当然是我说了算嘛。。。

最后,当然没人与主角,我抢镜头咯~ 镁光灯一直闪不停。。。赫赫!
被阿宏拉去陪他癫~的确有点尴尬

很巧合点了“红绿灯”

haiz, no comment ==


就这样,我们呆在那儿直到整间霸市都空无一人了,被保安赶, 我们才舍得离开
不过之后我们又把整个“摄影棚”搬到户外==
结果玩得太疯了,连时间都忘了。。。(11.20pm?!)
糟了,全家人还在等我回家庆生!过了12am就是22号,我生日过了耶。。。惨!
我就像灰姑娘,马不停蹄地赶在12am前回到家
我马上驾着飞快的车,向老鹰一样冲回家!
还好11.46pm! 还来得及~捏了把冷汗!

“玮航,你长大了哦!要努力你知道吗?”
在爸爸和妈妈的叮咛下,我终于可以正式向大家说:
我18岁咯!我长大了!赫赫>< 十八年前的那个冬至。。。
虽然我才刚呱呱坠地,还对世间的一切人事物没有知觉。。。
不过可想而知,母亲是多么辛苦,
不畏痛楚,咬紧牙根,
任由医生在自己的肚子上划了几刀,
才把我生下来的。。。
因此,每每孩子生日那天也就是佛教的母难日。
在狂欢之余,我内心还是很钦佩我母亲的:
一个柔弱的女人,为了迎接新生命,新呼吸,
竟然能变得如此坚强,强忍着泪水,
把一切的痛都自己吞下、忍着。
我虽然没说出口,
但是我还是要在这里打从心底地说
妈咪,我爱你!


乘坐的船 The Ship

Dunno y, i just dun have the passion to write blog....
it's almost two months ady since the last time i updated by blog....

What can I say is, a lot of things had happened to me within these two months....
I dunno where to start my words, but what is still in my mind is,
most of the memories are quite positive...

...although I had cried, sitting alone at the corner of my bed in hostel... be lost in thought

haiz, just 4get about it!

Let me continue my previous post.
I felt so disappointed to myself. I didn't do the best as i could in the exam.
What thrilling me is, I noticed that i have changed!
I felt so scared and helpless.... I need to know who am I now....
Why?! y would it happen to me? did I do something wrong?
perhaps, i shouldn't touch on that addicting computer
I am lost now.... totally sick of it!
I know i have no choice now
as I am on the boat now, in the middle of the sea, holding one-way ticket.
it's just matter of whether i can sail directly to the opposite shore or will drown in the middle of the damn salty water....

I have to keep going on... find myself back....
"I know u can do it, just try your best and strive as much as you can.... i didn't force you to b overseas, as long as u have tried your best. We will always be with you."
That's what my mom always tell me.
I know she is trying to console my broken heart, but, i will feel guilty every time she tells me like that, as i know i haven't put my really hard effort into it yet.
I know she is crying at behind.... knowing that her son is not happy and have changed. I think that is what ppl call the mother's love.

That's y i have made up of my mind not to bring along with my laptop over there for one-and-a half month. but...
it turns out of what i nvr expected...
a lot of assignments r being given by lecturer... i am desperately need to use it!
haiz... tat's y i have to spend RM 65+ to bring my laptop here...
I have learn a lesson here...

我现在乘坐的船不止载着我的灵魂,
还载着所有人对我的期望还有父母对我的骄傲和叮咛。
我不能。。。不能。。。让这艘船沉没下去
不能让父母的期望都沉没在冰冷浩瀚的大海。。。
因为我知道,父母一生最大的成就不在于升官发财,而是。。。
而是孩子,自己亲生骨肉的成就啊!
我,知道了。。。
妈,爸!我会努力的!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

友谊之手

踏出考场。。。
此时此刻的天气正好反映我的心情
乌云密布 雷雨交加 大雨犹如倾倒的水缸 倾盆而下


我不是难过
也 不是伤心
我只是很不甘 生自己的气
要不是多做练习 提升速度。。咳


大雨使得我无法向前走
天公似乎给予我惩示
让我好好的反省
此时 朋友
朋友 撑着雨伞向我走来


就这样 我们一起靠着这把伞涉雨而行
一步一脚印的走向巴士站


本无上心的我只想返归小休
毕竟我已心力交瘁
大雨又无止境的下

是朋友。。。
向我说了一句话:
“吃饱了就不会难过了,一起走吧”

他们带着我来到了我一直想去的
“The Chicken Rice Shop”。。。


我们 有说有笑
心情开始舒畅起来
谢谢朋友
谢谢你们 在我最难过的时候
伸出温暖的手

把我从深坑解救出来。。。 让我感到很窝心

让我知道 我
我不是一个人孤军作战

吃完了 一起把菜渣
做成一道美食 ;P



雨始终不停的落下
我们三个同房送了 女同学返闺
犹豫不决 该乘得换站的巴士 还是 直通的计程车

省钱为先 乘巴士吧!
到了第一站下巴士
决议涉雨步行返归
就这样我们三个大男人在雨中
一步一步地 从 Seksyen 2 走到 Seksyen 6
第一次体验到 Shah Alam 的雨夜景
绵绵细雨 徐徐冷风 轻拂我的脸
虽然有此美景
依然无法掩盖我心中的悲

是朋友
是朋友在我难过的时候伸出友谊之手
就这样我牵着温暖的友谊之友

与朋友 一起走回家
虽然被雨水溅得一身湿
不过我觉得这是我永远都不会忘记的一晚
有你们在身边 再苦的日子也是甜的
不知明年会否与你同班
不过 我想告诉你
就算是相隔天涯海角
咱们间的情谊也不会分离


真诚的友谊,是心灵的良师益友,是生命里的太阳。

真诚的友谊,是一句短暂的问候,是人生的精神财富。

真诚的友谊,是没有情感的附加,是内心世界的寄托。

真诚的友谊,是坦诚相见,以心换心.互惠互利。

珍惜友谊,善待友谊。

愿我们的友谊天长地久.....

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Essentials of Buddhism

Four Noble Truths

1. Suffering exists
2. Suffering arises from attachment to desires
3. Suffering ceases when attachment to desire ceases
4. Freedom from suffering is possible by practicing the Eightfold Path

One does not have to read the Tipitaka (Pali Canon) from beginning to end to understand the four noble truths. Each chapter is a Sutra(Sutta- synopsis), which Buddha would have used to explain the same four noble truths to his audiences under different circumstances.

Tipitaka (Pali Canon)
1. Vinaya Pitaka (Discipline Basket)
2. Sutra Pitaka (Discourse Basket)
3. Abhidharma Pitaka (Higher Knowledge or Special Teachings Basket)

Tipitaka is the earliest collection of Buddhist teachings and the only text recognized as canonical by Theravada Buddhists. Many commentaries have been added over the centuries, however. Tripitaka means "three baskets," from the way in which it was originally recorded: the text was written on long, narrow leaves, which were sewn at the edges then grouped into bunches and stored in baskets. How large is Tipitaka? It is 11 times the size of the Bible.


Noble Eightfold Path

Attainment of enlightenment:
bullet Aim : To attain final liberation called Nibbana.
bullet Instruments : Mind and Body (Nama-rupa).
bullet Procedure : Follow the Noble eight-fold path i.e.

Wisdom (panna)
1. Right View- To understand wholesome deeds, unwholesome deeds and comprehend the law of Karma.
2. Right Intention- The intention of non-greed, non-hatred and non-delusion.

Morality (sila)
3. Right Speech- Abstaining from false speech, malicious speech, harsh speech and idle chatter.
4. Right Action- Abstaining from killing, stealing and sexual misconduct.
5. Right Livelihood- Abstaining from wrong and corrupt means of livelihood.

Meditation (samadhi)
6. Right Effort- Awakening zeal for abandoning of unwholesome states and arising & sustaining of wholesome states.
7. Right Mindfulness- The four foundations of mindfulness (satipattana) namely contemplation on body, contemplation on feelings, contemplation on mind and contemplation on mind-objects.
8. Right Concentration- Abandoning of five hindrances namely lust, ill-will sloth-torpor, worry-agitation and doubt through jhanas.


Three Characteristics of Existence

1. Transiency (anicca)
2. Sorrow (dukkha)
3. Selflessness (anatta)

Hindrances

1. Sensuous lust
2. Aversion and ill will
3. Sloth and torpor
4. Restlessness and worry
5. Sceptical doubt

Factors of Enlightenment


1. Mindfulness
2. Investigation
3. Energy
4. Rapture
5. Tranquility
6. Concentration
7. Equanimity

The Eight Precepts are the precepts for Buddhist lay men and women who wish to practice a bit more strictly than the usual five precepts for Buddhists. The eight precepts focus both on avoiding morally bad behaviour, and on leading a more ascetic lifestyle. The five precepts, however, focus only on avoiding morally bad behaviour.

In Theravada Buddhist countries such as Sri Lanka and Thailand, Buddhist laymen and laywomen will often[citation needed] spend one day a week (on the Uposatha days: the new moon, first-quarter moon, full moon and last-quarter moon days) living in the monastery, and practicing the eight precepts.

The Buddha gave teachings on how the eight precepts are to be practiced, and on the right and wrong ways of practicing the eight precepts.

1. I undertake to abstain from taking life (both human and non-human).
2. I undertake to abstain from taking what is not given (stealing).
3. I undertake to abstain from all sexual activity.
4. I undertake to abstain from telling lies.
5. I undertake to abstain from using intoxicating drinks and drugs which lead to carelessness.
6. I undertake to abstain from eating at the wrong time (the right time is eating once, after sunrise, before noon).
7. I undertake to abstain from singing, dancing, playing music, attending entertainment performances, wearing perfume, and using cosmetics and garlands (decorative accessories).
8. I undertake to abstain from luxurious places for sitting or sleeping.

Ten Precepts

The Ten Precepts (Pali: dasasila or samanerasikkha) refer to the precepts (training rules) for Buddhist samaneras (novice monks) and samaneris (novice nuns). They are used in most Buddhist schools.

1. Refrain from killing living things.
2. Refrain from stealing.
3. Refrain from un-chastity (sensuality, sexuality, lust).
4. Refrain from lying.
5. Refrain from taking intoxicants.
6. Refrain from taking food at inappropriate times (after noon).
7. Refrain from singing, dancing, playing music or attending entertainment programs (performances).
8. Refrain from wearing perfume, cosmetics and garland (decorative accessories).
9. Refrain from sitting on high chairs and sleeping on luxurious, soft beds.
10. Refrain from accepting money

Sixteen Precepts

Within the Zen tradition there are generally sixteen precepts the first five of the last set of them being the standard five precepts. Sometimes these precepts (especially the last ten) are called the Bodhisattva precepts. Additionally, in some traditions such as the white plum lineage the precepts have been formed in the affirmative instead of the negative.[19]

(Three Treasures)

1. Taking refuge in the Buddha
2. Taking refuge in the Dharma
3. Taking refuge in the Sangha

(Three Pure Precepts)

1. Not Creating Evil
2. Practicing Good
3. Actualizing Good For Others

(Ten Grave Precepts)


1. Affirm life; Do not kill
2. Be giving; Do not steal
3. Honor the body; Do not misuse sexuality
4. Manifest truth; Do not lie
5. Proceed clearly; Do not cloud the mind
6. See the perfection; Do not speak of others errors and faults
7. Realize self and other as one; Do not elevate the self and blame others
8. Give generously; Do not be withholding
9. Actualize harmony; Do not be angry
10. Experience the intimacy of things; Do not defile the Three Treasures

An Introduction to Buddhism

To do no evil;

To cultivate good;

To purify one's mind:

This is the teaching of the Buddhas.

--The Dhammapada

The Buddha was born Siddhartha Gautama, a prince of the Sakya tribe of Nepal, in approximately 566 BC. When he was twentynine years old, he left the comforts of his home to seek the meaning of the suffering he saw around him. After six years of arduous yogic training, he abandoned the way of self-mortification and instead sat in mindful meditation beneath a bodhi tree.

On the full moon of May, with the rising of the morning star, Siddhartha Gautama became the Buddha, the enlightened one.

The Buddha wandered the plains of northeastern India for 45 years more, teaching the path or Dharma he had realized in that moment. Around him developed a community or Sangha of monks and, later, nuns, drawn from every tribe and caste, devoted to practicing this path. In approximately 486 BC, at the age of 80, the Buddha died.

His last words are said to be...

"Impermanent are all created things;
Strive on with awareness."

Monday, September 21, 2009

W.E.L.C.O.M.E. BACK!

it's almost two months i didn't update my blog about my life here in INTEC...

W.E.L.C.O.M.E. BACK!!

Welcome back!
This was the first word my mum said to me
when i entered my mum's car.

I missed my mum so much..
but, dun know y??
thousands of words that i wanted to say to my mum...
came to the edge of my mouth and stopped there.

my brain blanked~

I dunno what to say

She didnt asked me how's my life here in INTEC?
Did I missed home?
Narrated my story in school??

We just kept silent~

I think after 5 minutes,
my mum broke the silent atmosphere by asking me,
"Have u eaten?"

I answered, "Yes, I ate 2 packets of Nasi Lemak!"

Then, we started to talk...
^^

Wow.. it's great to be home!!!
I just put my luggage aside
and rushed towards my bed...
and,
SLEEP @@

I missed my home very much
here, is filled with all spice of my memory since i moved here 3 years ago.
i prepared my test, exam, and SPM here..
but now.... TT

although i knew that i have to be in the boring bus for 6 hours ++ to reach home
but, it still can't wipe out my thirst to back home ><

At night, we had gathering...
although i wasn't so willing to wake up coz i was so sleepy at tat time~
i felt like to continue my sleeping
but, i didn't do so
coz my frenz had been waiting me in my living room (i was the driver)
haiz~
i had no choice but to wake up~

I met my old frenz at TomYum Mee Food stall
wow, so great to meet my frenz here..
we chat and chat and chat~
hahaha!
also, I met my frenz in primary school who r studying in Chung Ling!
so weird, they also having gathering here at the same time
luckily i didn't on my bed right now...haha!

The next day,
i went out wif my family
we planned to have our dinner at TAO restaurant
but,
"Sorry, sir. It's full already..."
==
nvm, next plan --> Sushi King! wakaka
wow, very full...satisfied, but I am more prefer Korean cuisine...

suddenly, my mum came out an idea to watch "Where Got Ghost" at Sunway Carnival Mall
tut tut tut....(on the way by car)

"Sorry, sir, it's full oredi..."
@#!#@$@$#!@!
this was the second time to hear this statement in one night...
sad ><

tutu tutu tutu (back home)

the next day..*(3th day after back home)

Yeah!!!it's time to go to Mengkuang dam!
however,
it's my fault again ><

at 5.55am


"halo, Wei Hung ar...Where r u now wa??"
"har?! of coz on my bed la!!!"
"wat?? u haven't woke up kok ar?!"
"so...?"
"U 4got today we r going to dam mie?? we r all waiting 4 u now..."
"Oh me gosh! i know~wait 4 me har...I am coming!"

>< sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...sorry...

after sorry, it's sorry again... there is no other words to replace "sorry" & to cover my embarrassment ...

we planned to c sunrise at mengkuang dam there...but.. i spoil it
bcoz everyone was waiting 4 me (bcoz i am d driver ><)


any way, THANKS my frenz!
bcoz of u,
i wont feel lonely
bcoz of u,
i know wat is true fren
bcoz of u,
i know how to ENJOY MY LIFE!

although we cant meet for another 2 months
although we have to separate
but, d friendship will i keep in the deepest place in my heart
hope that we all won't 4get the time we have been together...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S FOREVER!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Life is suffering??

My friend asked me after studied about The Four Noble Truths in Buddhism:

"Why Buddhism do emphasis on suffering? Isn't it is quite gloomy to say tat life is suffering?? Is tat Buddhism pessimistic? Do u happy with that? "

erm....for me, suffering is actually exist in our life. But, suffering is something we, as human beings, usually do not want to know. We try to ignore its existence.

I have studied a book entitled "How to Develop Happiness in Daily Living“. This book have mentioned that when modern science did a series of research on Buddhist techniques of mind training in 2004, the result has found that Buddhists who practice meditation on a regular basis are indeed the happiest people!
This statement oppose the perception of those who do not know about Dhamma.
(I have tried meditation & that's why I try to perform it at my hostel at least once a week ^^quite effective)

Therefore, Buddha always told His followers about the causes and effects (cycle of suffering) as well as ways to address it (one of the way= meditation- purify your mind n use your wisdom to find the answer & solution by your own).

Another study by the University of California claims that Buddhist meditation makes individuals able to deal with fear and angle much better.

...I am talking about "suffering", but why i focus so much on meditation??

Actually, meditation, or mind training, is an important aspect of Buddhist practice. It is not just about claiming the mind but it is also about freeing oneself from habitual states of greed, hatred and delusion. Which, each of these is a source of suffering and therefore unhappiness. ^^


Although the Buddha's teaching starts with suffering (dukkha)- the 1st noble truth, it ends in freedom from suffering- known as nirvana(3th noble truth)

The Buddha's teaching therefore is about achieving this freedom from suffering- ultimate hapiness.

Though nirvana is the ultimate goal, how is it that Buddhists might find happiness in a world that is known as full of change, uncertainty, and unsatisfactoriness? Even when happiness is possible, there is no escape from old age, sickness and death.

What Buddhism does teach is that there are skillful ways of living (moral precepts& working on various meditiation techniques)

Not killing or harming living beings, not lying, not stealing, not indulging in inappropriate sexual activity, not drinking alcohol or taking drugs, mean that unhappy states are less likely to occur. To harm a living being, for instant, has had karmic consequences. It can lead to feeling of remorse and regret for what has done. It will also lead to suffering according to the Buddhist doctrine of moral causality or karma.

A strong element of Buddhism is cultivating +ve or wholesome states of mind. These include resisting a tenddency towards anger and fostering loving kindness (metta) and compassion (karuna).

Many Buddhists actively practice meditation techniques that develop goodwill to all beings. There is a practice of seeing each individual being as if they were your mother. This kindness and goodwill that you would extend to your mother, you also extend to others universally. Then, there is the compassion of empathizing deeply with others suffering. If they suffer, it is your suffering too - there is no separation!

So, how to we find happiness in this world? One message from Buddhism is the deep truth that one finds happiness by seeking the happiness of others.

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May all my parents, family, relatives, teachers, friends, and those who are unfriendly to me and people surrounding me, free from harm and danger, metal and physical suffering, and live in happiness.

Amitabha